pop-art

picture of sunrises/sets from flickr to create one big portrait
[goma]

create a song from google suggestions

classic.

drink classic.

the rest follows.

don't believe in love*dido

I wanna go to bed with arms around me but wake up on my own
Pretend that I'm still sleeping 'til you go home

Oh
I can't look at you this morning
I should probably have a sign that says, "Leave right now or quicker"
You've overstayed your time

If I don't believe in love nothing will last for me
If I don't believe in love nothing is safe for me
When I don't believe in love you're too close to me
That's why you have to leave

Maybe I slept peaceful on your shoulder
Your arm warm around my side
But it's different now
It's morning and I can't face your smile

The second that I feel your safe hands reaching out for mine
I slip away and out of sight
You've ovestayed your time

If I don't believe in love nothing is good for me
If I don't believe in love nothing will last for me
If I don't believe in love nothing is new for me
Nothing is warm for me
Nothing is real for me

If I don't believe in love nothing is good for me
If I don't believe in love nothing will last for me
When I don't believe in love nothing is new for me
Nothing is warm for me
Nothing is real for me

If I don't believe in love what do you get from me
When I don't believe in love nothing is real for me
If I don't believe in love you're getting too close to me
It's why you have to leave
It's why you have to leave

If I don't believe in love
Ooh

If I don't believe in love
Ooh

If I don't believe in love nothing is left for me
If I don't believe in love you're too good for me






_____________________________________________________________
*how very true. maybe this is how it is explained when i leave the guys 'suddenly'
i start doubting and
stop believing in love.



live my life* T.I. feat. Rihanna

Rihanna):
You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
Instead of chasing that paper.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Ain't got no time for no haters.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take you.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)

(T.I.):
Nevermind what haters say, ignore em 'til they fade away.
Amazing they ungreatful after all the game I gave away.
Safe to say I paid the way, for you cats to get paid today.
You'd still be wasting days away, now had I never saved the day.
Consider them my protégé, homage I think they should pay.
Instead of being gracious, they violate in a major way.
I never been a hater still I love them in a crazy way.
Some say they sold yah and no they couldn't even work on Labor day.
It aint that they black or white, their hands in areas the shades of grey.
I'm West side anyway, even if I left today and stayed away.
Some move away to make a way not move away cause they afraid.
I brought back to the hood and all you ever did was take away.
I pray for patience but they make me want to melt their face away.
Like I once made them spray, now I could make em put the k's away.
Been thuggin' all my life, can't say I don't deserve to take a break.
your would rather see me catch a case and watch my future fade away.

(Rihanna):
You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
Instead of chasing that paper.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Ain't got no time for no haters
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take you.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life.

(T.I.):
I'm the opposite of moderate, immaculately polished with the spirit of a hustler and the swagger of a college kid.
Allergic to the counterfeit, impartial to the politics.
Articulate but still I'll grab a nigga by the collar quick.
Whoever having problems with their record sales just holla 'tip.
If that don't work and all else fails, then turn around and follow 'tip.
I got love for the game but ay I'm not in love with all of it.
Could do without the fame and rappers nowadays are comically.
The hootin' and the hollerin', back and forth with the arguing.
Where you from, who you know, what you make and what kind of car you in.
Seems as though you lost sight of whats important when depositing them checks into your bank account and you up out of poverty.
Your values is in disarray, prioritizing horribly.
Unhappy with the riches cause you piss poor morally.
Ignoring all prior advice and fore warning.
And we mighty full of ourselves all of a sudden, aren't we?

(Rihanna):
You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
Instead of chasing that paper.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Ain't got no time for no haters
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take you.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)

Got everybody watchin what I do
Come walk in my shoes
And see the way I'm livin if you really want to
Got my mind on my money
And I'm not goin nowhere
So keep on gettin your paper
And keep on climbing
Look in the mirror and keep on shining
Till the game ends, till the clock stops
We gon' post up on the top spot
Livin the life, the life
In a brand new city got my whole team with me
The life, my life
I do what I wanna do
I'm livin my life, my life
I will never lose, I'm livin my life, my life
And I'm not stopping 

today at 4.26am

while watching the mtv of iris by goo goo dolls
i had a sudden urge to smash something.
like pick up my laptop and smash it.
or smash a guitar.

agh. adrenaline rush.

i have been reluctant to write this.

things i want to do. //end up not doing//

1)learn english properly
2)learn french
3)learn japanese
4)learn vietnamese
5)learn cantonese
6)learn hokkien
7)watch jason mraz
8)watch rihanna http://axcess.com.my/s_rihanna.asp?id=4342441358727313246253594135948028379525
9)watch no doubt
10)sing
11)play the piano
12)play the guitar
13)be in love
14)stay in love
15)travel thwe world
16)be happy
17)stay happy
18)how could i forget this. Play drums
19)have a home
20)have kids
21)a large dog
22)a cat
23)write poetry
24)change the world by writing, re-writing public policy /might feel more like dictating the world in the end
25)art

it probably won't ever end. but for now it will.
just live my life~rihanna,t.i.

things that can be done alone.

i don't take it back*

i was angry i was sad
but i won't take it back
you made me see
made me feel
made me happy
and
i love you.

for one day let me be a self-loathing idiot
i am farcical made of a nothing but a facade
(far·ci·cal (färs-kl)

adj.

1. Of or relating to farce.

2.

a. Resembling a farce; ludicrous.

b. Ridiculously clumsy; absurd.)

lu·di·crous (ld-krs)

adj.

Laughable or hilarious because of obvious absurdity or incongruity. See Synonyms at foolish.

---

[From Latin ldicrus, sportive, from ldus, game; see leid- in Indo-European roots.]


absurd, incongruous.
i like it.
this is nuts and crazy.

why do u think back so much
just let it go and
believe me
don't doubt me
why can't you trust me
/trust has to be earned
why is it always when i feel the most
and feel like i've given that
it all starts to crumble.
relationships
my one month barrier.

words are all that i have to give
currently
and fuck i was trying

debauchery

One entry found.

Main Entry:

de·bauch·ery

Pronunciation:

\di-ˈbȯ-chə-rē, -chrē, -ˈbä-\

Function:

noun

Inflected Form(s):

plural de·bauch·er·ies

Date:

1642

1 a: extreme indulgence in sensuality bplural : orgies
2archaic : seduction from virtue or duty

rake·hell (rāk′hel′)

noun

a dissolute, debauched man; rake

Etymology: prob. altered (< rake & hell) <>rakel,
rash, wild

adjective

immoral; dissolute

also rakehelly rake′·hell′y






europe-emirates 1474/lufthansa 1842
1st march 31st march

amie*amour

since im at it.

sex is an enjoyable distraction.

like locking myself in the bathroom

and enjoying the water falling on me

washing my cares away.

it's a playground where conversation is not at all needed

where there's just happy and sad where it's quite very

simple

love comes after that i feel

cos it takes time

but sex doesnt

it's instinctive.

i a m 

pre t ty

a ng r y

am i deflowering and trampling myself

i don't think

so

fuck suck squeeze lick

visceral love in 

physical form

this always happens

i guess i will never get used to it.

do i change 

now

?

what do i 

know,

i'm just me.

aMiE*

me.

*M, new year's eve, i was just like any other guy, whom u like enough to have sex with?

we have come to a stage where i cannot be addressed by name.

in the end. in the beginning. at the start.

back it up. back it up.

if it makes it easier to not talk to me, dislike me. yes. i don't care for the sex. right. i knew this was coming. there are nice things i might like to say. but to make it simple. just fuck off. oh man.

okay that was the angry thing. 

for what you don't know and possibly what i didn't know. i use it to somehow test character as well. during and after sex behaviours etc. and what you don't know is that i totally fell for you when u asked to stop doing it when it wasn't fun. i was so touched i totally fell head over heels for you. 

seriously. i hate you for bringing it up. give me a break.

fuck off.

david*birthday twin

what happened

17.12.08~02.01.09

17.12 (wed/thur) butter factory

18.12 (thur) pong pong juice,planning fri morn

19.12 (fri) jogging- puke green, dblO (army)dblO six injured stitches, alex*boy, talking by the river

20.12 

21.12 ex-gf birthday//dimsum

22.12 dvd marathon

23.12 

24.12 dblO // tCC // catch frog

22:40 Would u want ur twins to spend some time with u tonight?

25.12 butterfact w junwei & dominic // tiong bahru mkt

00:08 Merry Christmas, i'd love to dance a lil, but it's probably full everywhere baby )=

00:14 Wokay, let's roll ( =

04:29 Yeah, always love to tell/hear stories (= now I'll be damn proud to introduce to my friends, "hey! This my twins who never fails to connect with me" (ok I'm a lil high, maybe because of the glucose) i'm out, you take good care of ur health, I might just ask u out soon.. Gnight!

16:15 At one point of time, I figure all good girls are taken, gone or lesbian as well... Where, whenever any girl who tells me what u just told me.. I'll just smile and I know there's still nice girls out there ( =

Cute, looks? It definitely does matter but beauty is common, beauty can be bought.. There're just somethinga that u can't buy eh..?

26.12

27.12

28.12 mayday tix//shopping at raffles city//the girl who leapt through time

29.12 duxton// sentosa

30.12 little black dress* sentosa//se7en//geylang prawn mee

3:57 Still on my way back, it's cool, I enjoy the breeze and the last time in sentosa for this few yrs (= you've got a really sweet pretty little black dress baby *smiles* always feel good when i know my twin's enjoying herself *cheers*

4:10 Did it? Haa,whatever that makes u happy ( = and ya I'm home safely sweetie *coughs*

31.12 tuition//poker 

02.01.09

00:07

*hearts* 

Times

Running 

Out

My 

Love

09:18 

Take care, I'll be missing you *waves* love.

hello outerspace, send me an angel

Ngon restaurant -Nam Ky Jhoi Nghia St. Near Diamond Plaza

cutieanly24481@yahoo.com

bobo_camyeutoi@yahoo.com

Ruth, Thuy

Singapore michelle

Can i join your table
are you local?
From Singapore
that guy's very cute
red checked shirt.
he has a lot of friends!!
very hot
i think gay too.
but still hot

Nhung , Nga thuy

one headlight* the wallflowers

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well, they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees

I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
With the long broken arm of human law
Now, it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
I wondered why she hung around this place

(CHORUS)
Hey...
Come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me and Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all is good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end, it's just her window ledge

(CHORUS)

Well, this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well, it smells of cheap wine and cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think your death, it must be killin' me...

Hey, hey, hey
Come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me and Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iaqw-kVVisg

*~this song is perfect with the instruments and his ultra husky, magnetic voice. the lyrics are plain intriguing. it has the strong undercurrent to it... pushing you to just go for it. stop staying in the middle, throw out your guts and we can drive it home with one headlight~

tokyo wankei *

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Tokyo Wankei

• Alternative Title: 東京湾景
• Genre: Human Drama
• Film Date: July, 2004
• Total Episodes: 11
• Japan Casts:
  Nakamura Shunsuke, Nakamura Toru , Sato Eriko, Yukie Nakama
• Description:
  

  "Please tell me who I really am."

  This e-mail message was sent by Mika Kimoto, an editor working at a publisher in Daiba, Tokyo.

  Coming from a wealthy family, Mika has always had everything she has ever wanted and more. She is a third-generation Korean living in Japan. She loves her job, and her Japanese boyfriend is a doctor.

  There's one thing that bothers Mika though... Her father Masao is very conscious of his ethnic heritage and will allow Mika to marry only a Korean. When her relationship falls apart because of her father's interference, she just happens to post the above message on a mobile phone dating service.

  Ryosuke, a blue-collar warehouse worker at Shinagawa Pier, replies to Mika's message.

  Daiba and Shinagawa Pier are separated by Tokyo Bay. Mika is a career woman working at a major firm. Ryosuke lives a meager life doing manual labor at a warehouse. There seems to be nothing in common between the two. Still, destiny brings them together.

  One day Mika happens to find her late mother Yuri's diary. Written within is the tale of Yuri's concealed relationship with a Japanese man before she married Masao. Mika finds out her mother's hidden past and her passion for the man she loved. Without knowing it, she is about to follow the same path as her mother.

  -- Fuji TV

*it somehow really reflects my love with him. the difference in status and coming from different worlds kinda thing. and it answers my quest of trying to become human. treating and seeing everyone, including myself, as they are.

and here, loving one as he or she is.

this show satisfies my eternal crave for romance, always hoping for moments that take my breath away. it has a non-stellar cast -in my opinion-, no really smoove characters that i usually like, to capture ur heart and get ur head spinning, but just plain sincere, shy sweet love.

the sincerity and passion and steadfastness in the male lead is really attractive. he is simple and straightforward. dependable but not block boring. everything's just nice. and d seems to have the same qualities.

and i, at the 'lost' stage searching for my identity and hoping to find someone who'd help me find it.*

god's timing is impeccable
perfect.

//it's friday, i'm in love//

stop and stare*

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be

Oh, do u see what I see...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-3JPGkKZ6c

ONE REPUBLIC

~this song just came to my head today, feel that it's reflecting my current life status now.
guess it's enlightening and encouraging to know what i feel and where i'm at*

"A child needs your love most when he deserves it least. *Erma Bromback

1/13/2009		2:43:25 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		hellos miche!
1/13/2009		2:43:26 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		ya still up?
1/13/2009		2:43:27 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha..
1/13/2009		2:43:33 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		i lyke e quote on ya nick..
1/13/2009		2:43:35 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		helloss
1/13/2009		2:43:42 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		you tooo
1/13/2009		2:43:52 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		happy new year amandaa!*
1/13/2009		2:43:55 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha..a good reminder esp when im teachin sundae school..haha
1/13/2009		2:44:07 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha ya happie new year to ya..!
1/13/2009		2:44:08 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		(: that's nice
1/13/2009		2:44:18 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		kids are tough
1/13/2009		2:44:30 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		but we all have a kid in us to work with
1/13/2009		2:45:03 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha ... i tink its hard to discipline children..:P
1/13/2009		2:45:16 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		yup
1/13/2009		2:45:50 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		i found the quote very enlightening myself.. how very true it is
1/13/2009		2:46:04 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		and how people always do the exact opposite
1/13/2009		2:46:09 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		including myself
1/13/2009		2:46:15 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha ya me too...
1/13/2009		2:46:28 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		it's realli a good reminder -D
1/13/2009		2:46:32 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		ya slpin soon?
1/13/2009		2:46:41 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		not sure cos im hungry!!
1/13/2009		2:47:02 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha..! oh man i lyke ya exclamation mark too..looks lyke mine but its bigger haha..
1/13/2009		2:47:12 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		i just ate kinder bueno..heex
1/13/2009		2:47:34 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		was kinda lyke getting tings in order before school officially begins..lyke packin room ..
1/13/2009		2:47:36 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha..
1/13/2009		2:47:44 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		2moroe's moi first lec !
1/13/2009		2:48:14 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		lol hope it's fun (: lol
1/13/2009		2:48:27 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		yaya
1/13/2009		2:48:28 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		goodnight you~*
1/13/2009		2:48:35 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		makan's sometimee
1/13/2009		2:48:55 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		ok..haha okes catch up with ya again ya..goot nights1 n sweet dreams!
1/13/2009		2:49:25 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		x) slp
1/13/2009		2:49:59 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha sho cute..okes..take care ya!! bb
1/13/2009		2:50:07 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		you tooO!
1/13/2009		2:50:13 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		=)
1/13/2009		2:50:22 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		///

aMiE*

my new name
pronounced M-E, emmy, am-e
non-american in pronunciation where the A is emphasized

short form M, em

french for female friend

loveit