emo mo mo*

it's terrible to be the one left behind for i'd felt it so many times. i run sometimes i fly to find a safe spot to cry.*

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過的快樂或委屈突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶突然模糊的眼睛我們像一首最美麗的歌曲 變成兩部悲傷的電影為什麼你 帶我走過最難忘的旅行然後留下 最痛的紀念品 我們 那麼甜那麼美那麼相信那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經為何我們還是要奔向各自的幸福和遺憾中老去<3
*eons ago but just feel like i should keep a log// all the beautiful words of love and loss.

conversational flutters. flirts

Miche

yes the music is very annoying.

doesnt do it much justice.

i just watched one movie adaptation of the book

pretty good and josh duhamel played dorian gray

3:13amXavier

i hv nvr heard of dorian gray or josh duhamel...

but i hope the music isnt consistently similar to that of the video i just watched

i thought the acting and dancing was good, i liked it

3:16amMiche

yess. buy me a ticket to uk and we can go watch!

hahaha

josh duhamel is the guy in las vegas

tad hamilton

and a number of other things

3:18amXavier

if josh duhamel was a hot girl, i'd be more interested...

but i just wiki-ed dorian gray, i found the characters very interested

oscar wilde, broken into 3, dorian gray, basil and harry

damn interesting

yea ya know, i wld

but its cheaper if i paid for ur yoga lessons and u learnt to fit into my luggage

3:19amMiche

yeah it is awfully interesting

not necessarily seeing that i havent been doing yoga consistently

3:21amXavier

sibyl vane... tts wht im talkin abt!

hahaha

well go for ur classes, i'll conduct "revision" and "tuition"

i'll make sure u'll be... on top of things

3:22amMiche

i wrote smth about her.

right u make it seem like u are some yoga guru

3:23amMiche

anyhow i can somehow feel for her how she lost the need to act and portray fiction as she is well satisfied with the love that now fills her life

and gets all her attention

3:24amXavier

probably not, but i am good at looking

degree of professionalism depends largely on your chosen outfit...

yea havent we all been thr...

especially when i was a kid, every time a new toy comes out, out goes the old one

3:27amMiche

chosen outfit? so what would be best?

no i dont think everyone's been there/agrees

it's not simply about liking smth new and abandoning the old

the case with sibyl vane, or so it seems to me

3:28amXavier

well im saying whats based on what i read frm like 5 lines on wiki...

will need a clearer picture... oscar wilde is da sex

ive read abt him quite a bit, i find him very engaging

3:30amMiche

yes yes me too

i missed one-derland cos i was a the importance of being earnest

did u catch the film wilde?

that was pretty cool not to say jude law was gayly hot in it

3:31amMiche

yeah i'm analysing on wiki grounds as well cos i haven't gotten my hands on the book cos some A/P reserved it and i can't borrow it from the library

3:32amXavier

ya noe, miche

nxt time, try mentioning a female name, it might work better 2 get my attention....

3:33amMiche

sorry dear. hmmm jessica biel is hot

3:33amXavier

but no, i havent watched wilde... jude law's cool though, i believe he's a good actor

3:33amMiche

i love natalie portman in CLOSER

3:33amXavier

YES

3:33amMiche

julia robers is swell as well

but natalie was just simply..

3:33amXavier

NATALIE PORTMAN >>>>>>> JESSICA BIEL + JULIA ROBERTS

no contest

ya know

i look at natalie portman and i think

okay, natalie, i know thrs more to you than whatever i see right now

thrs just something abt her

3:35amMiche

yes

3:37amXavier

come to think of it

i think u have a bit of natalie portmanism in you as well

3:38amMiche

what a compliment

tho i have no idea what exactly that is.. but it sure is an honor

3:40amMiche

http://october1962.livejournal.com/

3:41amXavier

haha well gd or bad, i dnt knw, i just think u do

cannot open...

ahh well

im gonna go

3:42amMiche

yup

i wish we talked at more normal hours.

good morning good night.

3:44amXavier

yea well

we'll see, i still wanna kick your sorry-ass to DDR hell

3:45amMiche

we shall see

3:45amXavier

we shall....

aiight, gd morning gd night!

eh wait

whats ur msn

3:46amMiche

the same as my facebook

ie u already have it

3:46amXavier

no nut choc

hahaha

wth is that anyway

3:46amMiche

is darling. a musing when i was 11years old.

happens to be a favourite of mine

3:47amXavier

tts cute

3:48amMiche

if you're at my-house

you need to be leashed

3:48amXavier

well if i ever wanna piss you off, imma buy u roches

3:48amMiche

rocher?

yea

i would spit out the nut center

i loveee the new dark chocolate rocher

3:48amXavier

yea that would be safer for both of us...

3:49amMiche

they clearly wanted to make chocolate just for me

3:49amXavier

its almost 4am, im ready for bed and leashes just stir very physical thoughts...

3:50amMiche

sorry it was just a comment.

3:50amXavier

chocolate.... QUANTITY OVER QUALITY

3:50amMiche

about ur email

haha

well well

it depends

3:50amXavier

yea, juz swapping comments ;)

nono

quantity

3:50amMiche

yes sweets think sheep now.

no sometimes quality

3:50amXavier

look, i'll explain why quality can be over-rated nxt time

3:51amMiche

malaysian chocolates sometimes fail to satisfy

i can show u next time

3:51amXavier

after i kick ur ass in DDR

we'll go to the supermarket and choc-out

3:51amMiche

there is a plateau la to quality. but the basic should be there.

in your dreams dear. in your dreams

3:52amXavier

i'll show u quantity

3:52amMiche

i'll bring quality

3:52amXavier

a 3-pack of kinder bueno

3:52amMiche

that is good chocolate

3:52amXavier

nestle crunch and your ass handed to you on a platter

EAT THAT

3:52amMiche

in my definition

3:52amXavier

what...

have u had agnes b. chocs

3:52amMiche

crunch deps on manufacturing country

3:53amXavier

tts true...

3:53amMiche

my ass is already with me. tho i know many pple want it

hmm agnes b chocs

nah.

too much. even the bags are sometimes too much.

lovee the accesories.

3:54amXavier

okay before i ramble

i gotta go, reservice in 4 hrs

hahahhaa

ttys

3:54amMiche

ta

3:54amXavier

nite

"Don't hang around like this; it's irritating. you made up your mind to leave. now, go." For she didn't want him to see her crying- she was such a proud flower.

The Little Prince- Antoine De Saint Exupery

Sibyl Vane - An exceptionally talented (though extremely poor) and beautiful actress with whom Dorian falls in love. Her love for Dorian destroys her acting career, as she no longer finds pleasure in portraying fictional love when she has a true love in reality.

The Picture of Dorian Gray http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Picture_of_Dorian_Gray

This novel by Oscar Wilde turns out to be such a tradgedy. I want to read it but it seems so sad and painful and of course, vain.

I agree especially with Sibyl Vane and understand why she might lose her talent in acting, as it's no longer her greatest passion where she puts all her time effort and feelings into... when someone fills ur mind the way a lover does, there just seems to be no space for anything else.

Being in the love game again makes me wonder again, am i reading too much into things or are these guys all interested in me. Well, let's just try to not speculate and concentrate at being a decent human being. and being human. and getting well.

that said. i need to sleep soon.
and study for the btt.*

i'm a sucker for love stories.
fairytale and non-fairytale alike.

someone i miss a lot*

someone suddenly talked to me at two pm.
being at a daze, i thought it was you...
i was so happy that you were talking to me as if we were friends..
just like before.

still awake?
hey dear. yeah having my weekly fix
gossip girl
hols now?
nope tw drama
nooo i wish
haha
not sure if the latest gg is out
so easter break's starting only next week huh
is it three weeks as well?
err are you sure who you're talking to?

- that's when i found out,
it's not you.

you must be gallivanting with your new love this holiday..
what can i say.
love is free.
love is love.


haha
crap
i dont
must be dazed.
tsktsk
yeah now i know.
too much drama
perhaps.
lol


now i know.. know that i still miss you,
late in the night.
know that i'm still pining
for us to be right
even if it's just as friends
that would suffice

i wonder when this feeling would end.
the next love perhaps.
hopefully not tho.

today richard spoke silly and i wanted to tell you about it
would you want to talk to me about it?
i guess you wouldn't mind.
but you're just never around anymore
and who am i to ask.
now, now.
be still be quiet
stop
and
don't feel.

Sometimes the hero finally makes the right choice, but the timing is all wrong.
And as they say, timing is everything.*

not high.

i read his blog. refreshed, with eyes open, i understand words that i didn't before.
he is really into her... frustrating about how a trip can make or break a couple*

the asterixtar and coloured words.. no longer meant for me. well since when were they not meant for me. i haven't a clue. but i'm rather sure the latest one isn't. *i'll be so lost without you

cos it doesn't apply to us/me.
i'm addicted to attachment. it made me give up previous addictions.
this isn't good.

it's a depressant i know i shouldn't take and yet i indulge in it due to mere habit. indulge really seems wrong. since there's no enjoyment now. so rather, i do it out of mere habit.

give me a constant high. *high, so high.. up in the sky*

been emo-ing karen mok songs. and it started with this one which floated into my mind.

他不愛我

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EKt6tOqzFdI&feature=related

莫文蔚 - 陰天
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nxm7i9jRw0Q&feature=related

盛夏的果实
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Blt3oLWsCV8&feature=related

北極光 (canto v of 盛夏的果实)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M3Rstn0Bkeg&feature=related

莫文蔚 寂寞的戀人啊

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JoMgIL6z2oQ&feature=related

忽然之間

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JB5HWzDnW4I&NR=1

most of the lyrics resonate.

i saw through to his heart, seeing the shadows of another lingering
i saw his heart, playing all the movie scenes involving him with her
albeit that he doesn't love me, he still won and took away my heart with him

is love an opium for the spirit or just a boring past-time we induldge in at the end of the century.
the silly us, smiling how sweetly.
at the beginning everything was great every minute every second, it just seems the passion would never decrease. other than the mild feeling of fatigue after every passionate moment.
anyhow these few years, the heart ruled the head
isn't love just about two parties willing, it's best that we level our love debt and not owe each other anything.
at the bottomline, when it comes to love, one breaks free and one picks up the pieces.
it's just that those few years, there wasn't affinity for the both of you.

at least all the memories belong to me

why is it that i miss you when i'm at my most vulnerable.
我明白 太放不开你的爱....
分不开，想你算是安慰还是悲哀？
is it a comfort to think of you or is it just a pathetic thing for me to do.
not being able to part (in the heart), we may actually start to believe more in love.

wreck of the day *anna nalick
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JzigDWOweVw

as drunk as a lord* linger*the cranberries

i talk to cats, i cry like puppies, i bark like a bitch.
-bite me.

as drunk as a lord* linger*the cranberries

as happy as a lord~ *the most beautiful stories leave tears rolling in your eyes.

*|_|-|_|-|_| piano keys make me cry they open up my heart exposing my red bloody flesh to this filthy world.


can you be my dinosaur* everyone wants to be found. -lost in translation
[leloveimage.blogspot.com]


ikite, shiawase ni natte.*

if i really want you, would you want me?
though i know nothing about her, i know nothing between you two,
but what i know, i feel and i want to let you know,
(without confusing your feelings further tho)
that i still do, have feelings for you*

there's nothing much to compare,
it's just feelings. she means more, i mean less
responsibility is not the issue, love is the one and only component of my heart tissue*

i'd profess my love, sing it like a song..
if you like it i'd sing it all day long.

that much is said, nothing's dead or gone
be true and live
happy not forlorn*

i know i'm not giving up on love... maybe cos i'm watching baiquan as well. shrugs.
how would it be if i asked him about her. i guess i really want to know tho it may hurt. bad.*
but i want to be known. have i become a hopeless case of human beans that need to constantly feel surrounded and loved by another. attached to another? perhaps/i think so.

well, this will be an unsent open letter. one day it might be read by the one it's for... or one day i may just chance upon it and laugh at myself. one day. some day.

but for now, the feelings are as real as can be my heart still hurts and tears flow inside. if it flows into my lungs i might just get pneumonia. okay i shall finish up the show and well distract myself with muse or smth.*


post note:
read: she means more i mean less is like an example.
as drunk as a lord* linger*the cranberries says:
well. well. well. actually maybe i dont believe in that. cos love is not an expandable energy and should not be quantified.
The Shane Man® says:
hahaha now you're thinking deep like a true student of literature
The Shane Man® says:
kekeke
as drunk as a lord* linger*the cranberries says:
ha. i got that from my cousin.. when she was counselling me about my misconceptions of love... talking abt my parents.
The Shane Man® says:
orh ok cool cool

truth hurts, reality bites*

i'm sitting here. crying. biting my finger.
rather relieved from hearing the truth, finally.
i guess it may be a good thing that i've only finally exposed it now and not
when i first suspected. i'd believed and worked to manage a relationship for a long long time.
and was emotionally committed to someone. like i finally feel like i actually know how to. how to love.
how to be committed to someone. how it actually feels like.
i think i cried less than a minute or 30 seconds.
my heart cringed, it hurt.
my tears fell, i sniffed.
i was sad.

but sad, i can't stay for too long.

everybody but me*lykke li

i don't like the feeling when u're not looking for anyone, but you're looking for someone.

this ultimately means that you are hung up on someone. one particular person and until someone appears, you will feel messed up.

somehow.

Ooh I stand in the corner
Thinking over 1,2 what am I to do
Should I go home still sober
Or should I buy me another glass of wine
And forget about time?

But my jeans are too tight
Don't really feel like dancing
No this light is too bright
Don't really feel like shining
No this room is too small
Rather stand against the wall
And hope that no one sees me

When everybody's dancing
I don't want to
When everybody's joking
I don't want to
When everybody's laughing
I don't want to
Everybody but me

When everybody's drinking
I don't want to
When everybody's smoking
I don't need more
When everybody's fooling
I don't want to
Everybody but me

I get the creeps from all the people in here
I cannot breathe
It's too crowded in here
Don't look at me
I don't wanna be seen
Touched, heard, bothered
By the fellas
Who got that look in their eye
They wanna take me home
Without knowing my name
They wanna put it on
But do they not know
Is that I'm not like the others


http://www.myspace.com/lykkeli
Au Revoir Simone - The Lucky One
http://www.myflashfetish.com/playlist/14228719

songs*before i lose it again

http://www.myflashfetish.com/playlist/14228719

Au Revoir Simone - The Lucky One
downloads.pitchforkmedia.com
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Lykke Li - Everybody But Me
youtube.com
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La Vie En Rose - Louis Armstrong
youtube.com
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http://www.myflashfetish.com/playlist/19463615
Sweet Dreams By Eurythmics

creating chaos everywhere she went
divorced as many times as she's married leaving only good wishes behind*

chasing after the white elephant- is thesaurus a dinosaur?

aMiE3* -the littleboy's room*the killme nows

"A child needs your love most when he deserves it least."Erma Bromback //你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追,以后为自己醉.

baby im too lost in you caught in you

everything about you

-because ur bigger heart covers my smaller heart-

how does a dog feel, chasing its tail?

the lucky one*au revoir simone

*okay shall not anything here anymore~ this shall be the last
march 24 09

because my baby's gone, not my baby anymore.
i guess i can't share after all. if you like something hard enough, you wouldn't want to share it would you?

no more giving the people i love what i love? nah. i'd still do that.
but never was there giving a stranger what i love. there is however, letting my love have what he loves. even if what he loves isn't me.

do you love me?

Peanut Butter Vegetable Chicken Soup

SUBMITTED BY: annie nordmark PHOTO BY: rachael

"The peanut butter adds something wonderful, without really tasting like itself. The BEST soup I have ever tasted."

http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Peanut-Butter-Vegetable-Chicken-Soup/Detail.aspx

INGREDIENTS (Nutrition)

• 8 cups chicken broth
• 2 cups diced, cooked chicken meat
• 1 cup peeled and cubed potatoes
• 1 cup diced carrots
• 1 cup diced zucchini
• 1 cup broccoli florets
• 1 cup canned whole tomatoes, chopped
• 1/2 cup chopped celery
• 1/2 cup chopped onion
• 1/2 cup chopped green bell pepper
• 2 cloves garlic, minced
• 1/2 cup peanut butter
• 1 tablespoon chopped fresh parsley
• salt to taste
• ground black pepper to taste

DIRECTIONS

1. In a large stock pot, combine the broth, chicken, potatoes, and carrots. Bring the soup to a boil, and then reduce heat to medium. Cook for about 10 minutes, till vegetables are tender.
2. Add zucchini, broccoli, tomatoes, celery, onion, green pepper, and garlic. Simmer for about 8 minutes.
3. Add peanut butter, parsley, salt, and pepper; stir until peanut butter is fully blended. Simmer for 3 minutes longer.

___________________________________________________________________

okie mine had the fatal experimental mistake of beancurdpaste[fu1ru3] yups.
but it's still edible la. sour i guess. ha. well nothing about the peanut butter spoiled this broth, that much i'd say. anyhow. this is my supperrr.
xx

<3

p.s. and my picture looks half decent like those posted online in the website. haha. take thAT!

pop-art

picture of sunrises/sets from flickr to create one big portrait
[goma]

create a song from google suggestions

classic.

drink classic.

the rest follows.

don't believe in love*dido

I wanna go to bed with arms around me but wake up on my own
Pretend that I'm still sleeping 'til you go home

Oh
I can't look at you this morning
I should probably have a sign that says, "Leave right now or quicker"
You've overstayed your time

If I don't believe in love nothing will last for me
If I don't believe in love nothing is safe for me
When I don't believe in love you're too close to me
That's why you have to leave

Maybe I slept peaceful on your shoulder
Your arm warm around my side
But it's different now
It's morning and I can't face your smile

The second that I feel your safe hands reaching out for mine
I slip away and out of sight
You've ovestayed your time

If I don't believe in love nothing is good for me
If I don't believe in love nothing will last for me
If I don't believe in love nothing is new for me
Nothing is warm for me
Nothing is real for me

If I don't believe in love nothing is good for me
If I don't believe in love nothing will last for me
When I don't believe in love nothing is new for me
Nothing is warm for me
Nothing is real for me

If I don't believe in love what do you get from me
When I don't believe in love nothing is real for me
If I don't believe in love you're getting too close to me
It's why you have to leave
It's why you have to leave

If I don't believe in love
Ooh

If I don't believe in love
Ooh

If I don't believe in love nothing is left for me
If I don't believe in love you're too good for me






_____________________________________________________________
*how very true. maybe this is how it is explained when i leave the guys 'suddenly'
i start doubting and
stop believing in love.



live my life* T.I. feat. Rihanna

Rihanna):
You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
Instead of chasing that paper.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Ain't got no time for no haters.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take you.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)

(T.I.):
Nevermind what haters say, ignore em 'til they fade away.
Amazing they ungreatful after all the game I gave away.
Safe to say I paid the way, for you cats to get paid today.
You'd still be wasting days away, now had I never saved the day.
Consider them my protégé, homage I think they should pay.
Instead of being gracious, they violate in a major way.
I never been a hater still I love them in a crazy way.
Some say they sold yah and no they couldn't even work on Labor day.
It aint that they black or white, their hands in areas the shades of grey.
I'm West side anyway, even if I left today and stayed away.
Some move away to make a way not move away cause they afraid.
I brought back to the hood and all you ever did was take away.
I pray for patience but they make me want to melt their face away.
Like I once made them spray, now I could make em put the k's away.
Been thuggin' all my life, can't say I don't deserve to take a break.
your would rather see me catch a case and watch my future fade away.

(Rihanna):
You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
Instead of chasing that paper.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Ain't got no time for no haters
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take you.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life.

(T.I.):
I'm the opposite of moderate, immaculately polished with the spirit of a hustler and the swagger of a college kid.
Allergic to the counterfeit, impartial to the politics.
Articulate but still I'll grab a nigga by the collar quick.
Whoever having problems with their record sales just holla 'tip.
If that don't work and all else fails, then turn around and follow 'tip.
I got love for the game but ay I'm not in love with all of it.
Could do without the fame and rappers nowadays are comically.
The hootin' and the hollerin', back and forth with the arguing.
Where you from, who you know, what you make and what kind of car you in.
Seems as though you lost sight of whats important when depositing them checks into your bank account and you up out of poverty.
Your values is in disarray, prioritizing horribly.
Unhappy with the riches cause you piss poor morally.
Ignoring all prior advice and fore warning.
And we mighty full of ourselves all of a sudden, aren't we?

(Rihanna):
You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
Instead of chasing that paper.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Ain't got no time for no haters
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take you.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)

Got everybody watchin what I do
Come walk in my shoes
And see the way I'm livin if you really want to
Got my mind on my money
And I'm not goin nowhere
So keep on gettin your paper
And keep on climbing
Look in the mirror and keep on shining
Till the game ends, till the clock stops
We gon' post up on the top spot
Livin the life, the life
In a brand new city got my whole team with me
The life, my life
I do what I wanna do
I'm livin my life, my life
I will never lose, I'm livin my life, my life
And I'm not stopping 

today at 4.26am

while watching the mtv of iris by goo goo dolls
i had a sudden urge to smash something.
like pick up my laptop and smash it.
or smash a guitar.

agh. adrenaline rush.

i have been reluctant to write this.

things i want to do. //end up not doing//

1)learn english properly
2)learn french
3)learn japanese
4)learn vietnamese
5)learn cantonese
6)learn hokkien
7)watch jason mraz
8)watch rihanna http://axcess.com.my/s_rihanna.asp?id=4342441358727313246253594135948028379525
9)watch no doubt
10)sing
11)play the piano
12)play the guitar
13)be in love
14)stay in love
15)travel thwe world
16)be happy
17)stay happy
18)how could i forget this. Play drums
19)have a home
20)have kids
21)a large dog
22)a cat
23)write poetry
24)change the world by writing, re-writing public policy /might feel more like dictating the world in the end
25)art

it probably won't ever end. but for now it will.
just live my life~rihanna,t.i.

things that can be done alone.

i don't take it back*

i was angry i was sad
but i won't take it back
you made me see
made me feel
made me happy
and
i love you.

for one day let me be a self-loathing idiot
i am farcical made of a nothing but a facade
(far·ci·cal (färs-kl)

adj.

1. Of or relating to farce.

2.

a. Resembling a farce; ludicrous.

b. Ridiculously clumsy; absurd.)

lu·di·crous (ld-krs)

adj.

Laughable or hilarious because of obvious absurdity or incongruity. See Synonyms at foolish.

---

[From Latin ldicrus, sportive, from ldus, game; see leid- in Indo-European roots.]


absurd, incongruous.
i like it.
this is nuts and crazy.

why do u think back so much
just let it go and
believe me
don't doubt me
why can't you trust me
/trust has to be earned
why is it always when i feel the most
and feel like i've given that
it all starts to crumble.
relationships
my one month barrier.

words are all that i have to give
currently
and fuck i was trying

debauchery

One entry found.

Main Entry:

de·bauch·ery

Pronunciation:

\di-ˈbȯ-chə-rē, -chrē, -ˈbä-\

Function:

noun

Inflected Form(s):

plural de·bauch·er·ies

Date:

1642

1 a: extreme indulgence in sensuality bplural : orgies
2archaic : seduction from virtue or duty

rake·hell (rāk′hel′)

noun

a dissolute, debauched man; rake

Etymology: prob. altered (< rake & hell) <>rakel,
rash, wild

adjective

immoral; dissolute

also rakehelly rake′·hell′y






europe-emirates 1474/lufthansa 1842
1st march 31st march

amie*amour

since im at it.

sex is an enjoyable distraction.

like locking myself in the bathroom

and enjoying the water falling on me

washing my cares away.

it's a playground where conversation is not at all needed

where there's just happy and sad where it's quite very

simple

love comes after that i feel

cos it takes time

but sex doesnt

it's instinctive.

i a m 

pre t ty

a ng r y

am i deflowering and trampling myself

i don't think

so

fuck suck squeeze lick

visceral love in 

physical form

this always happens

i guess i will never get used to it.

do i change 

now

?

what do i 

know,

i'm just me.

aMiE*

me.

*M, new year's eve, i was just like any other guy, whom u like enough to have sex with?

we have come to a stage where i cannot be addressed by name.

in the end. in the beginning. at the start.

back it up. back it up.

if it makes it easier to not talk to me, dislike me. yes. i don't care for the sex. right. i knew this was coming. there are nice things i might like to say. but to make it simple. just fuck off. oh man.

okay that was the angry thing. 

for what you don't know and possibly what i didn't know. i use it to somehow test character as well. during and after sex behaviours etc. and what you don't know is that i totally fell for you when u asked to stop doing it when it wasn't fun. i was so touched i totally fell head over heels for you. 

seriously. i hate you for bringing it up. give me a break.

fuck off.

david*birthday twin

what happened

17.12.08~02.01.09

17.12 (wed/thur) butter factory

18.12 (thur) pong pong juice,planning fri morn

19.12 (fri) jogging- puke green, dblO (army)dblO six injured stitches, alex*boy, talking by the river

20.12 

21.12 ex-gf birthday//dimsum

22.12 dvd marathon

23.12 

24.12 dblO // tCC // catch frog

22:40 Would u want ur twins to spend some time with u tonight?

25.12 butterfact w junwei & dominic // tiong bahru mkt

00:08 Merry Christmas, i'd love to dance a lil, but it's probably full everywhere baby )=

00:14 Wokay, let's roll ( =

04:29 Yeah, always love to tell/hear stories (= now I'll be damn proud to introduce to my friends, "hey! This my twins who never fails to connect with me" (ok I'm a lil high, maybe because of the glucose) i'm out, you take good care of ur health, I might just ask u out soon.. Gnight!

16:15 At one point of time, I figure all good girls are taken, gone or lesbian as well... Where, whenever any girl who tells me what u just told me.. I'll just smile and I know there's still nice girls out there ( =

Cute, looks? It definitely does matter but beauty is common, beauty can be bought.. There're just somethinga that u can't buy eh..?

26.12

27.12

28.12 mayday tix//shopping at raffles city//the girl who leapt through time

29.12 duxton// sentosa

30.12 little black dress* sentosa//se7en//geylang prawn mee

3:57 Still on my way back, it's cool, I enjoy the breeze and the last time in sentosa for this few yrs (= you've got a really sweet pretty little black dress baby *smiles* always feel good when i know my twin's enjoying herself *cheers*

4:10 Did it? Haa,whatever that makes u happy ( = and ya I'm home safely sweetie *coughs*

31.12 tuition//poker 

02.01.09

00:07

*hearts* 

Times

Running 

Out

My 

Love

09:18 

Take care, I'll be missing you *waves* love.

hello outerspace, send me an angel

Ngon restaurant -Nam Ky Jhoi Nghia St. Near Diamond Plaza

cutieanly24481@yahoo.com

bobo_camyeutoi@yahoo.com

Ruth, Thuy

Singapore michelle

Can i join your table
are you local?
From Singapore
that guy's very cute
red checked shirt.
he has a lot of friends!!
very hot
i think gay too.
but still hot

Nhung , Nga thuy

one headlight* the wallflowers

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well, they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees

I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
With the long broken arm of human law
Now, it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
I wondered why she hung around this place

(CHORUS)
Hey...
Come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me and Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all is good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end, it's just her window ledge

(CHORUS)

Well, this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well, it smells of cheap wine and cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think your death, it must be killin' me...

Hey, hey, hey
Come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me and Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iaqw-kVVisg

*~this song is perfect with the instruments and his ultra husky, magnetic voice. the lyrics are plain intriguing. it has the strong undercurrent to it... pushing you to just go for it. stop staying in the middle, throw out your guts and we can drive it home with one headlight~

tokyo wankei *

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Tokyo Wankei

• Alternative Title: 東京湾景
• Genre: Human Drama
• Film Date: July, 2004
• Total Episodes: 11
• Japan Casts:
  Nakamura Shunsuke, Nakamura Toru , Sato Eriko, Yukie Nakama
• Description:
  

  "Please tell me who I really am."

  This e-mail message was sent by Mika Kimoto, an editor working at a publisher in Daiba, Tokyo.

  Coming from a wealthy family, Mika has always had everything she has ever wanted and more. She is a third-generation Korean living in Japan. She loves her job, and her Japanese boyfriend is a doctor.

  There's one thing that bothers Mika though... Her father Masao is very conscious of his ethnic heritage and will allow Mika to marry only a Korean. When her relationship falls apart because of her father's interference, she just happens to post the above message on a mobile phone dating service.

  Ryosuke, a blue-collar warehouse worker at Shinagawa Pier, replies to Mika's message.

  Daiba and Shinagawa Pier are separated by Tokyo Bay. Mika is a career woman working at a major firm. Ryosuke lives a meager life doing manual labor at a warehouse. There seems to be nothing in common between the two. Still, destiny brings them together.

  One day Mika happens to find her late mother Yuri's diary. Written within is the tale of Yuri's concealed relationship with a Japanese man before she married Masao. Mika finds out her mother's hidden past and her passion for the man she loved. Without knowing it, she is about to follow the same path as her mother.

  -- Fuji TV

*it somehow really reflects my love with him. the difference in status and coming from different worlds kinda thing. and it answers my quest of trying to become human. treating and seeing everyone, including myself, as they are.

and here, loving one as he or she is.

this show satisfies my eternal crave for romance, always hoping for moments that take my breath away. it has a non-stellar cast -in my opinion-, no really smoove characters that i usually like, to capture ur heart and get ur head spinning, but just plain sincere, shy sweet love.

the sincerity and passion and steadfastness in the male lead is really attractive. he is simple and straightforward. dependable but not block boring. everything's just nice. and d seems to have the same qualities.

and i, at the 'lost' stage searching for my identity and hoping to find someone who'd help me find it.*

god's timing is impeccable
perfect.

//it's friday, i'm in love//

stop and stare*

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be

Oh, do u see what I see...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-3JPGkKZ6c

ONE REPUBLIC

~this song just came to my head today, feel that it's reflecting my current life status now.
guess it's enlightening and encouraging to know what i feel and where i'm at*

"A child needs your love most when he deserves it least. *Erma Bromback

1/13/2009		2:43:25 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		hellos miche!
1/13/2009		2:43:26 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		ya still up?
1/13/2009		2:43:27 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha..
1/13/2009		2:43:33 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		i lyke e quote on ya nick..
1/13/2009		2:43:35 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		helloss
1/13/2009		2:43:42 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		you tooo
1/13/2009		2:43:52 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		happy new year amandaa!*
1/13/2009		2:43:55 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha..a good reminder esp when im teachin sundae school..haha
1/13/2009		2:44:07 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha ya happie new year to ya..!
1/13/2009		2:44:08 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		(: that's nice
1/13/2009		2:44:18 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		kids are tough
1/13/2009		2:44:30 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		but we all have a kid in us to work with
1/13/2009		2:45:03 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha ... i tink its hard to discipline children..:P
1/13/2009		2:45:16 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		yup
1/13/2009		2:45:50 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		i found the quote very enlightening myself.. how very true it is
1/13/2009		2:46:04 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		and how people always do the exact opposite
1/13/2009		2:46:09 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		including myself
1/13/2009		2:46:15 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha ya me too...
1/13/2009		2:46:28 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		it's realli a good reminder -D
1/13/2009		2:46:32 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		ya slpin soon?
1/13/2009		2:46:41 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		not sure cos im hungry!!
1/13/2009		2:47:02 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha..! oh man i lyke ya exclamation mark too..looks lyke mine but its bigger haha..
1/13/2009		2:47:12 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		i just ate kinder bueno..heex
1/13/2009		2:47:34 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		was kinda lyke getting tings in order before school officially begins..lyke packin room ..
1/13/2009		2:47:36 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha..
1/13/2009		2:47:44 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		2moroe's moi first lec !
1/13/2009		2:48:14 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		lol hope it's fun (: lol
1/13/2009		2:48:27 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		yaya
1/13/2009		2:48:28 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		goodnight you~*
1/13/2009		2:48:35 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		makan's sometimee
1/13/2009		2:48:55 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		ok..haha okes catch up with ya again ya..goot nights1 n sweet dreams!
1/13/2009		2:49:25 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		x) slp
1/13/2009		2:49:59 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		haha sho cute..okes..take care ya!! bb
1/13/2009		2:50:07 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		you tooO!
1/13/2009		2:50:13 AM		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		=)
1/13/2009		2:50:22 AM		l'arc* eat sleep dance repeat		aManda - saving grace. God provides. :)		///

aMiE*

my new name
pronounced M-E, emmy, am-e
non-american in pronunciation where the A is emphasized

short form M, em

french for female friend

loveit